Monday, March 28, 2016

Stepping Onto Air

                                              So this is what actually just happened...and what I'm talking about. 
I was at the end of telling you what it was like to step out into the unknown as a writer after twelve years of writing a bi weekly column. All the words were there. I had chosen my graphics carefully to augment my text.

I had spoken of the comfort of a small known audience. I explained in wonderful words how I might have goodness rather than resiliency upon which to build. I was going to experience
And in doing so, I might find I could land on a ledge right underneath the one I could not see, or fall and get caught by a tree branch sticking out like those old cartoons. But whatever I was facing, Yesterday was both the ending and beginning for me and today, well...
And then it happened. I looked at the screen and poof! It was all gone. The whole entry was lost. A half hour of work after several hours of thought about which words to choose. As I stared at the blank screen in shock, I thought how completely apropos.

So I add a new dimension to the consideration of stepping onto air. 
What if it's unnerving and you have to think in new ways about situations which are unfamiliar. Do you go to the light spot in your emotional bank or your dark spot?

I have found this to be a good practice, but indeed I have had many years of perfecting the response. I acknowledge the dark and move forward from my light. In other words, I take a breath and say 'WTH or that sucks, or crumbunnies, or something truly stronger and then accept, ACCEPT what has happened and sit for a minute to discern what will be the most helpful action to rectify or return  to, or renew the effort.

If you want to have a better life, stay in touch more closely with your emotions and move to acceptance, genuine acceptance, as quickly as you can.

There, I did it! That will not appear in a column anywhere. And for the first time I will transfer my signature to these pages , these blogs helping to encourage people to Rise to the Challenge of their lives. Maybe I will find I can fly with my wings open.
Love,
Deborah